/ new
/ old
/ book
/ email
/ aim
/ profile
/ host
/ poetry
/ zenbox
/ old drama
/ negating ouroboros

/ drivel .001

/ wasteland & further; waiting for a slaughter

/ november is a month of ghosts

/ transformations // extremes

a grey knive lurking on the corner of the bathroom counter, incongruously balanced on the edge - just about to fall - the light of day leaked into the room like dish detergent being squeezed gently out of a bottle, and over in the corner, rats rustled in a paper bag. he walked into the room to the sound of the ceiling fan slowly misunderstood. his left sneaker squeaked slightly. paper in his pocket crumpled up and a blue crayon behind one ear. a muddy cigarette in one hand and no lighter. his eyes are silently stained-glass windows inside a church with no congregation, waiting for the hollow bellpulls - the doorbell of the Almighty. he takes out a sharpie and marks an x on the wall. moments later a fly buzzes fatly in and lands on the                                             spot, preening and humming to itself. below, at the baseboard, an ant trundles in. he looks at the mirror. he looks away. outside, a bird hits the window, and all things still, in hushed                                          mourning. an ignorant cricket looses a selfish mating call and
2003-08-29, 12:35 a.m.

response to Dreamland;

               an insane amount of reading, lately.

it began with f. scott fitzgerald's "tender is the night", continued with clive barker's "sacrament", and has recently concluded with kevin baker's "dreamland" -- soon, i'm sure, to be continued with either "underworld" by don delillo .. or something else.

something i hadn't noticed : all of these books concerned change, the ripple effect, the undeniable and inevitable sense of erosion. "tender is the night" : a man in bitter peril against the erosion of his wife's sanity - and consequently, the erosion of his while she miraculously recuperates?

"sacrament" : a man teased into a gala of supernatural events, dealing with extinction & love and loss -

and finally, "dreamland" : a neurotic whorl of epic fiction/nonfiction concerning the turn of the century in Coney Island ... gangster, rouged whores, jewish, goyishe, politicians, the city itself ... so much heroism, so much anger, rage - yet not nearly enough emotion, for me. a particularly moving part where the girls (fabrente mayelde) go on strike & are jailed, and treated like concentration camp inhabitants; the whore sadie mendelssohn's sudden repetenance .. her rape --

my head is spinning with the glare of coney island as i imagine it. the leer of lights. the glare of broken glass - whores converging on the marching striker women, seizing their fisted hands in what seemed empathy - the strikers cry out suddenly and jerk away and sadistic smiles blossom on the whores' faces: they had strapped small broken pieces of glass to their palms. the book is not written this way. the prose is cut-and-dry, and oftentimes, much less poetic than the place itself. Dreamland, the centric carnival of the novel, roars & buckles against the confining prose, snarling to be let free. shifting from point-of-views is constricting rather than freeing, except in the interludes where sigmund freud & carl jung are visiting the City ... i needed more, i still do - enraptured in the honey-blossom peril of the celebrations, right in there, jammed thigh-to-thigh with jewish, christians, irish, italians : dirty shmattes of clothing and askews mezuzahs dangling from our necks. sweaty & proud, chanting so loudly that you can't hear your own voice :

and all around, the night is not the night, ablaze as it is with the wizard of menlo park's design, the cataclysm & horror of electricity darting around. there's the real carnival, trapped into a crystal ball, into a jar of preserves, the cavorting spectre of god himself, frenzied, lighting up dim rooms & basements, giant mansions and ballrooms ... i can't imagine. that great unity in the midst of pandaemonium, so tired that you have arthritis at eighteen, bent half-double like old men on walkingsticks. and freud's endless search for a porcupine ...

the damning elation of the ocean, beating, slamming into the beach of pristine sand, eroding, taking away a centimetre, a millimetre at a time, a harsh sizzled whisper of glee as it does, like a cutter in the factory intent on the work at hand .. cut the fabric. cut it down to size, mold it to something new -

tenements like scraggly teeth on the sidewalk. burn them down, excise the old, rotted crowns and replace them with shiny dentures, somewhat bleak in their destruction of the vainglorious -

america is a huge mistake,/ freud says grimly. caterwouls rise up from the carnival. the City thrums like the throat of a panther, a constant growl of warning that no one heeds ...

prev / next

©SEH